3:11pm

Hi Little Dude,

One hour ago, at 3:11pm marked one whole month without you – it feels like yesterday but it also feels like a lifetime ago.

I don’t know what to say to you today other than ‘I miss you’ – so much. It hurts.

I can’t believe its been one month; that’s 31 days I haven’t taken a photo or a video of you, 31 days where you haven’t accompanied us on walks, 31 days you haven’t got a treat, 31 days I haven’t tripped over you in the kitchen, 31 days where you haven’t slept in a Finny Fort, 31 days without me harassing you with kisses, 31 days where your sweet eyes haven’t looked into my soul, 31 days without ‘chinos’… and 31 days without a car ride….

31 days where I haven’t really laughed or smiled… Its been a tough-go.

At night I wake up and hallucinate you’re here – the other night you were for sure in your fort that I even took a photo… when I woke up and looked at the photo nothing was there except a pair of blue & yellow butterfly PJ shorts sitting on the pillows.

Daddo has had dreams about you too…

A few days ago your custom urn came in the mail – boy, its gorgeous. I hate/love it.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

I knew life before you, and I knew life with you… but I hadn’t thought of how hard life would be without you.

You will forever be my heart. I hope you’re doing OK <3